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难道爱其实很简单？一点也不复杂？我只能够说，单单有嘴巴来说的话，爱真得很简单，但是在现实生活中，它实实在在是太复杂，太难了解。至古以来都有一句名言，“问世间情为何物，至教人生死相许”，世间根本没人能把它解开，感情的事情有时真的很难说，很难预测。
天天翻开报纸，外遇，乱伦，忘年恋，姐弟恋，师生恋，同性恋，双性恋都会在世界各地发生，这种恋情往往都不会被人祝福，还被人歧视，严重的话还要被控诉，然后苦尝官司或监狱风云，让人叫苦连天。可是，没人会懂他们所承受的一切痛苦，也没人会懂他们彼此之间的故事，他们也是俩情相悦，他们也爱的轰轰动动，错只错在他们相遇在不适合的时间，地利，人和；错只错在他们投错了胎，转错了世；错只错在天上的月老硬硬地把他们撮合在一起。天孽啊！
和他们相比，我们真的比他们幸福好多好多，我们所面对的挫折永远不会比他们所承受的痛苦，我们应该要好好地去珍惜我们眼前所拥有的一切。不管再大的困难，再大的误解，再大的争执，都会有解决的方式，只是时间长短和诚意的问题。一个对感情诚心诚意和尽心尽力的人，不管用多久的时间，他都会为了维护它的感情而心甘情愿牺牲。
在感情世界里，一个好的终生伴侣，真的可遇不可求。如果你真的那么地幸运的遇见了，请你一定要好好珍惜，不然失去了后真的会终身后悔。真爱难求！大家互相迁就和尊重一下，肯定你天天都在过情人节。
祝天下有情人幸福美满每一天！
我说我自己烦？我也不会很烦？只是还做不了决定而已！是不是人越长大，该烦的事就越多，该背负的责任就越多，该做的决定就越多？我其实已经为我这几年该完成的事找到了一些头绪。。。接下来只是等我一项一项去把它完成。。
有些人问我，我是不是想的太远了？１０年？什么事情都可以发生。但我只能告诉你，计划始终是计划，为长远打算是件好事，因为我有自己的人生目标，我也会为了这些目标而努力奋斗。
而那个“他“，该怎么办呢？他也许会说我太自私，只为自己的目标而奋斗，而不是为了他而奋斗。也许，我真的太自私！但是，感情这回事，不一定要那么快做决定，也不需要一股脑儿地往里边钻，除了感情，还有许多更有意义的事等着我们去做，以免自己以后后悔，那时也许一切已经太迟了。
人，一旦对家庭有了一些负担和责任后，很多时候都会身不由己。特别是在有了自己的孩子后，自己的时间就该全心全意地为了家庭和孩子。那么，为何不在自己还有时间为自己做点儿事情时，一一把自己的梦想完成后，才把自己交托给家庭呢？这样，以后生活大家才会开开心心吧？也不会有那么多的遗憾了，对吗？这样，大家应该会很幸福吧？
所以，我的那个‘他’，如果他真的那么有耐心在等我的话，我也不会辜负他对我所做的一切，我毕竟不是一个负心的人，而且我对他的感情也非常认真，我也已视他为我的未来伴侣了。但是，他会相信我吗？我真的不懂！因为他对我说他对我没有信心。毕竟和他在一起已经６年了，不管如何，我还是很在乎他的一切感受。感情，真的会使人更烦恼，感情真的是没有人能解的开的一个死结。因为它，我真的需要认真地再作决定一下。
愿主永远祝福和保佑我吧！
Am I ready? Readiness for what kind of thing? It’s the readiness to settle down my entire life with someone else. In these few months, especially after my birthday month, which is after 12th of September, this question is keep popping up into my mind. I’m 24 this year, next year will be turning into 25, getting older year by year. My friends, one by one have settled down their life with their significant other half, some even have their children and live with full happiness at least for now, and I’m sincerely hope that they can be last forever and ever. It’s really made me feel so envy with their marriage life and also made me start to think of mine as well.
Marriage life? I think it will be quite new and fresh to me, it’s totally another new stage of lifestyle for me. I have many sorts of imaginary scenes for my future marriage life. Imagination is always sweet and happy. But, it’s cruel to remind myself that reality will always much more different than our dreams. No doubt, this situation could be happened to everyone in every marriage. In order that, for me, I will always advise myself not to expect or imagine too much on my future marriage, this is to avoid any dissatisfaction or comparison that could create many complaints and demands on/from your other half in future. Just let everything go naturally.
Have you ever heard about a famous proverb like "Getting Married is the life of starting to step into the tomb" (This is what I heard from some of my male friends) and I wonder how true is this. Most of the cases, they claim that their spouse (which mean women or us) will be totally controlling their freedom, suspecting every single things/movements or controlling their financial ability after getting married. In fact, when there is something related with relationship, definitely there will be occurrence of jealousy. We are human being, we have our own feeling/reaction/preference on every kind of things/events. Anyway, to avoid this kind of situation, just try to minimize the chance of making your partner feeling unsecured or suspecting you by showing your faithful heart and always keep your promise to them. Well, for me, I never believe there will be no argument, disagreement or dishonest at all in a marriage. For sure, the minor one we still able to handle with care, but as if we are facing the serious matter? What’s our reaction? How could we handle it without hurting anyone? Especially when an unlucky party is facing a dishonest partner or even a violence partner, I think the entire marriage life will be suffering, isn’t it?
Study through some of the reports/articles regarding marriage nowadays, it seems that marriage can be broken up so easily, relationship now is soft like a beancurd, with any harder pressure, it will be broken or burst up like nothing. But for me, I have seen quite a number of examples for successful relationship or even successful long distance relationship. Who said long distance relationship does not exist? Advance technologies nowadays can make many things become reality. Sometimes, broken up with some reasons that made other party seems or feels like very real or truth or guilty is just an excuse for somebody. Personally, I can’t stand with this kind of people, simply give any excuse to break up with another party who treat them very nicely and did not make any fault.
And, for me, I never demand much from my partner, I know no one will be perfect in this world. Since I was young, I’m only looking for the guy with good personality and can treat me nicely. Mr. Right / Mr. Perfect to me are very simple. He only needs to be understanding, tolerant, can bright up my mind when I’m down, mature or knowledgeable that can give/teach me useful information/advise when I lost, responsible and always keep his promise, know when to be serious and when to be playful, loyalty, hardworking and always looking to go forward or improvement on himself, friendly and piety to both of our friends and family; and the most important is he must adore me like the precious one and always put me at his first priority. I do not think it is hard right? And, I never looking for the guys who are rich and proud, good appearance, flirty and wild guys who like to hang out other places rather than home, always put his friends at the first priority and never think of their partner’s feeling, strong gentleman egoism, no ambitious to their future life, stubborn and bad temper, satyr, stingy and not generous, unfaithful/dishonest, violence and etc. This is because I am not tough enough, I really scared to get hurt from any relationship. In other words, I only choose to fell into a relationship that I feel secured and safe. I never want to test or try on a relationship, once I attach with somebody, I really meant to be forever and long lasting unless there’s something occurred which can make us separated. I do not like to fool with love and I expect the others treat me the same as well, I do not like anyone getting hurt in a relationship unless there’s some incidents happened between two parties.
Am I too pessimistic on marriage? I’m not! I’m just expressing some of my ideas regarding marriage nowadays. I think I should be optimistic to my future marriage as if my future spouse still sticks to the current one. I believe that he’s definitely a nice guy who can let me to rely on and feel at ease to share my entire life with. Although I have been so desperate to get married in last few months, I know I’m still not ready yet. Getting married is easy, only there are tons of things we have to face and handle later on, if there’s no proper arrangement or management in a marriage, the worst ending will be DIVORCED. It needs lots of commitments to make a marriage successful. I’m concerned about those commitments, it isn’t a game anymore, we have to pay full responsibility for everything we are going to do or we have done. There is no more one man business but it is involving two parties. Hence, the tension and pressure from a marriage is not a joke, it is quite a heavy burden for those who are not ready and not planned properly yet. As a matter of fact, I have my own arrangement and planning now, frankly speaking, marriage is still under my planning now, it’s still a long list to go before I can step into a marriage. So, let me achieve some of my planning or dreams first before I can think about it. Marriage is very important to me, once decision made, it will be whole life decision, I think I need more time to reconsider and plan for it. Dear! I hope you can wait for me for another few more years, I know that you will understand that we need to work harder for our career in these few years to achieve more things, I know that you will understand that we need more preparations for a good quality future especially on financial support at this moment. I know you are being so understanding, patience and tolerance to my unpredictable emotional all the way I started my social university. I’m learning, try to learn as many things and gain as much as knowledge for myself. You told me I changed so much after worked, YES! I DID!, perhaps I think this is a nice change for me compared with the previous me. I know you will always support me and reassure me when I need someone beside me and listen to my every single ups and downs. I know I’m not a good partner to you because I’m not perfect at all, but try to accept every single things of mine, no matter the goods or the bad one, I always hope that I’m the unique one and the one and the only one in your heart. I do always pray that you will never compare me with the other girls in this world and you will always love me in this way. I WILL LET YOU KNOW THAT YOUR SACRIFICE TO ME IS WORTHY AND ALWAYS VALUABLE IN FUTURE. I WILL PAY BACK TO YOU WITH DOUBLE TRIPLE TIMES. I WILL ENSURE THAT YOU WILL HAVE A VERY HAPPINESS FAMILY IN FUTURE, I WILL DO IT FOR YOU & MAKE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE.
Just browsed thru some of the Australian Universities’ websites to have some studies on the duration, costing & entry requirements for taking up a Master Degree course. In conclusion, it’s not cheap at all & it needs another 2 yrs to take the Master degree. It’s ain’t a short time for me, I scared that I have not much patience to finish my Master and the most terrible thing is it costs AUD50,000.00 to accomplish a Master course. If I’m planning to take Distance Learning, I can save a lot for the living expenses that could be spent in Aussie. But, I wanna go to Aussie to take my Master coz I wish to enjoy my student life again. I missed my student life so much. I do not think that I’m able to take study loan anymore as I have a housing loan nowadays. And, I have some dreams not achieved yet. So, have to save lots of money to achieve them one by one. Consequently, my dream to achieve a Master degree has to be prosponed…until further notice, perhaps until I’m 40 years old. Hahaha!!! What to do? People work hardly and gain cent by cent like me will be only act in this way…have to gain money and save money for myself to achieve everything. Bitter life? Yes, it’s bitter, but I think I will enjoy the experiences that I have gone thru.
Just a little updates for myself…
It’s November now…And one more month, Christmas & New Year season will come. That’s the time I can go back to my hometown together my ’signaficant other half’ and celebrate it with my family. I miss my hometown so much. I have been 8 months did not go back to KK. I miss my family, all my friends in KK.
My Friends
Cucuk –> I miss your silly jokes and actions all the time here, you always can cheer up my life;
William –> I miss the time we were clubbing together and your never happened but never ending stories about yourself;
Joyce –> I miss the time that we were sharing everything with each others + I have been a few years not seeing you, must catch up with you soon;
Ah Gu –> I miss the time you always pick me up and send me home last time, thanks so much to him + he’s the only one always remember to inform me and remind me if there’s any gatherings;
Kelvin –> Buddy! I miss the time that he’s always being crazy & bring so much funs to me, Elvynna, you are the lucky one as I’m sure that he can bright up your life as well;
Edmond –> Oppss..buddy! I miss your precious advices and you was the one always lending me a hand during secondary when I felt down and in trouble. In my mind, you are smart and very rich but you never be proud to yourself. But you are a busy businessman now and staying in KL, we didn’t meet up for a year.
Yenny –> Oh…my LaoGung! I miss your pretty apperance so much, so fair and pretty and always look so fit. I miss the way you are laughing and smiling. You unique laughing and smiling style definitely can cure my angerness.
And other Primary mates and Senior 3 Xin’s mates and etc etc…Sorry to those I didn’t mention out your name, but you should know you are always in my mind…Please give me some times to included you in my next blogs, coz I don’t manage to write down everyone here due to time limitations. >_<
Oh ya! I almost forgotten to inform you all that, I wish to organize a reunion for all Senior 3 Alumni Year 2000 from STTSS, anybody wanna lend me a hand? Or wanna join me as a committee for this event, hahaha…so excited to meet up all of you as soonest as possible. Since I had lost contact with most of you, I’m exciting to see how you all get changing in these few years compared to previous time, and keen to know the latest updated information from you all.
My Hometown
Kota Kinabalu, my own hometown, I missed it! Gosh! I’ve been 8-9 months not going back there, don’t know how much it has changed. I heard KK is going to build some big & nice shopping malls like KL, got new built hotel + shophouses + branded shops, and more night life amusement places to go during night time, and more 24 hours shophouses nowadays. Heard that our International Airport is going to renovate also, wow!!! So much changes…made me feel like going back NOW. And, I wanna go back to shopping, can’t wait it anymore, because KK clothes and shoes are much more cheaper than Sarawak. I’m loving it! My shopping mode is ON now.
Delicious Food
Talking about food, I feel so hungry again. Yummy Yummy! Wow!!! I missed KK Food!! Thinking to eat "锅贴" (Fried Dumpling) at Luyang, Buns at Lintas / Kolombong, “牛什” Ngau Chap at Luyang / Lintas, “生肉面”Sheng Rou Mian at Lintas, “富平点心”Fu Ping Dim Sum At Hilltop, Seafood mee, Seafood, Japanese Food at Wagamama, Satay, Bak Kut Teh and etc etc…Oh…stop stop stop…so hungry now…Can’t wait to go back to have those food again.
I’ve booked my ticket on 24/12/2006, I’ll be back on that day…to celebrate Christmas and New Year with my family. And, I’ll back to workstation again on 02/01/2007. Counting day by day now… … …
See you guys at KK soon!!!
「有個惡魔路途中掉了一張面具
小女孩好奇的撿起來…看了幾眼就帶上去
結果惡魔面具依附在她的臉上掙脫不了
她變成了面貌猙獰的怪物
小女孩驚慌失措的跑回村子找母親
結果母親不認得她…還聯合村人趕跑她
女孩傷心透了
結果有個青梅竹馬的小男孩出現
出面認指她…因為他相信是那小女孩
小女孩得到有人信任…面具脫落
再度重回小男孩的懷抱 」
[有沒有聽過啊?]她雙手繞著他的肩膀
髮絲垂落到他胸懷…身上的香味沁入到他的體內
獨特的香味讓他有種溫暖的感覺.
他當然聽過了…這故事…她不知說了好幾次給他聽了
[明天要不要為我送行呢?]他轉過頭望著她…
在她的耳邊輕輕的說
[不要....因為我會哭....]她嘟起嘴巴…
忍耐著不哭的表情…讓他好想笑
這一點就讓他覺得很可愛
他跟她都已經論及婚嫁了…
因為工作的關係…必須在國外做一年…
可以的話…他好想把她帶到身邊…
可是她的父母不准
[在國外,你都要想我喔！]
[會的,除了妳誰都不想！]
[真的?]
[保證~]
他捏著她的鼻子…輕輕蓋上她的嘴唇…
她的淚水不爭氣的落淚…紅暈的臉頰在燈光下更加紅潤…
他幾乎差點放棄去國外的深造
[別哭...為了妳... 我一定馬上回來,到時我們再舉辦很慎重的婚禮如何?]
[好...好....嗚...]
[別哭了,我會心疼的.我愛妳.]
[我也愛你.]今生,他只愛著她.
送別他離開沒多走…過了幾個月…….
她與朋友逛街途中…不慎遭到酒醉駕車碰撞…
生命一度垂危…好不容易救活了生命…
臉型卻變得可怕…
因為手術過程中…縫合手術失敗…造成顏面神經受損
她躺在床上哭泣著…
一張完美的臉失去…那又何必生存下去…
到不如一死了之…
父母望著她…一眼都不敢面對…
要不是有朋友支撐…她還無法就這樣活著下去
[這是他的電子信箱,要不要和他通信?]朋友好心的問
因為她自己的臉造成內心的自閉…不敢與人溝通…
就連心愛的他也不敢和他通話
[他很擔心妳,一直想知道妳的情況....]
[妳要我說嗎！！妳要我這張臉去說嗎！！
父母都不接受我...更何況是他！我根本.....不敢面對他啊....]
她摸著那張扭曲的臉像怪物一樣…
以前的她呢?不見了！
他有何感想?會不會還愛著她?還會喜歡她嗎?
她甚至不敢去妄想可以跟他結婚！
[這....也是試探他的機會啊！]
朋友勸說下…她終於和他開始通信…
可是卻沒告訴他真正的樣子…因為心裡很害怕…
緊接著…時間一天一天的過去…
一年的時間很快就到了
來信的他很快樂的敘述他們之間的未來…
她看了…心碎了…害怕了…
終於他回國的日子到來了…
在朋友的陪同下…她胸口巨大的害怕和不安…
但是內心有一絲絲想賭看看的機會…
是不是像以前她故事所說的一樣…他會認得出她嗎?
她帶著帽子,墨鏡,口罩…
來到機場…遠遠的一邊等著心愛的他入場
他下了飛機心情雀躍…
一年思念滿滿的充斥他的心…他對她的愛是無法說清楚…
過去一年和她通話…中間雖然中斷…
可是還是以電子信書來回…互相記彼此的思念…
一方面擔心著…
為何她突然失去消息?她的朋友也一概不說…
還是不管這些了…
因為今天就可遇見她…遇見思念一年的她…
踏入機場…人群穿梭中…他望著四周群找她的身影…
他相信…她不是毀約的女孩…
一定有來…踏開腳步在機場開始尋找她的人…
終於…在出口的柱子後方…
他看見她的背影藏在柱子後面
高興的他走過去…從後面抱起來
[想死我了！跑到這裡接我！跟我玩躲貓貓啊！]
[你.....找得到我?] 她聲音很小聲…彷彿要確定一樣
他感覺怪異…轉開她的身子…她怎麼遮起自己面貌呢?
[你....你..你還認得我嗎....]
哽咽的聲音從口罩底下傳來…
他心一驚…趕緊抱著她…
一定是發生事情了…不然她怎麼會這樣呢?
[我當然認得出妳啊！我愛妳啊！]
[那........這樣還會愛我嗎?]
在他的注視下…她拿下帽子脫掉眼鏡…最後扯開口罩
一張醜陋無比的臉顯現在他的眼前…
眾人的驚訝聲…此起彼落的聲音描述她的面貌.
他起先一楞…隨即笑開
他毫不在意…把她擁入懷中…輕聲呢喃的在她耳邊說著.
[好美.....我當然愛妳.]
他輕輕摸著她臉上大大小小的疤…吻如雨般碰觸那些痕跡就算臉變了…以前的她不在了…他依然愛著她
他和她開始籌備婚禮…雖然他這邊的父母不答應
可是他還是堅持著
因為他是真正的愛著她…
他愛她的內心…不是外表…
所以…一眼從背影就知道是她
回到國內工作…他為了快點進入狀況…常常都比較晚回家
所以…她經常擔心著…
就算他時常打電話來告知他的去處…
她還是會擔心.好害怕…
他會不會因為她的臉失去對她的愛…
她變得好自閉.完全沒信心
剛開始…她常常打電話給他…
只有一分鐘遲到…她就會開始詢問他去了哪裡?
有了懷疑的心…她變得有點歇斯底里…
甚至完全希望他不要出去工作
他皺著眉頭…好幾次想要說清楚想解釋
但是礙於她的內心創傷…他忍著不說
漸漸地…她變得無理取鬧…像個瘋婆子…
每件事情都要講理由…說了理由還是再度懷疑…
懷疑又再三的確認…一次又一次
他承受不了工作還有其他事情上壓力…
面對她那些指責莫須有的罪名
終於…他說了！
[別連妳的心也跟著醜陋了！]
他憤恨的說…走出去
面對他的指責…
她哭了…她也不想這樣…因為她好害怕失去他…
所以想辦法的困住他…沒想到卻帶給他困擾…
以前她不是這樣的…
臉醜了…心也醜陋了…一切的事情因為這張臉而變了
她決定要道歉…打了電話…他跟她說正在開會…
於是她來到公司…公司人卻說他沒來上班
她愣住了…
訝異著…再次打手機給他…然而對方未開機
她開始害怕…他是不是找其他女人了…
想到這…她皺起眉頭…因為她的胡思亂想所以他才會跑掉
所以改為擔心…她應該多信任他
然而在街上逛…對面隔著玻璃的咖啡廳…
很清楚的看到他還有另一個女人…
沒想到…她的想法竟然成真…
隔著玻璃望著他面對那個女人有說有笑…她哭了…
那個女人有著一張好美的臉…
是她以前曾經所擁有的…但是卻失去了
她好恨…好恨他！
他果然嫌她醜陋…嫌她不好看…他不要她了！
過了幾天…取消了婚約…他不知名原因…一度拜訪她的家然而都遭到拒絕..
她連他最後的解釋都不聽
就這樣又過了一年
她帶著這張醜陋的面具過生活…
直到她朋友再度勸說請她做手術…
她一再拒絕…至少因為這張臉…
她可以看清很多人的真面目…
可是,她的朋友不死心…一再的勸說下…
她跟朋友還有父母來到日本動外科手術
朋友強調這是很有名的醫生…絕對會整形回來
她笑了笑…抱著賭看看也無所謂…
不過是一張皮而已
過了12小時的手術…又過1個月的修養…
她跟朋友一起打開了面紗…
一張熟悉的臉出現…是以前的她！
以前的她回來了！
她苦笑著…以前的臉回來了…可是他卻不在
從此她過著另一個生活…另一個重新的開始
她的生活圈變大…認識很多人…
也結交一個與她可以廝守終生的人…
她不要愛情只要幸福…這張臉就是給她美好的幸福
跟著論及婚嫁的男子…
她來到日本…想跟幫她動手術的醫師說謝謝
剛好…醫院裡給她答覆是那醫師不在…
她待了許久…醫師終究沒出現
轉開腳步…正要離開醫院
忽然在轉角處…不小心碰到一名病患…臉上都是包著紗布
[對不起...]她以不流利的日文說著
只見那病患似乎很訝異看著她…隨即衝忙的離去
她似乎想什麼似的…
抓著那病患的手…依然用著不流利的日文說著
[這裡的醫生很好,給他們動手術,你的臉就會恢復原狀...
看！我的臉是在這動手術的！很漂亮吧！]
[........]病患沒說什麼
未婚夫在門口叫住她…
她對病患笑了笑…隨即走出醫院外
望著醫院門口…看著她臉上那副幸福的笑容…
他默默的流淚
忽然…女醫師出現那病患的身後…
很正腔的日文說著
[你真愛她,為了她,捐出自己的臉皮...然而她卻不認識你.....
一年前開始就找我希望動這手術,這結局你滿意嗎?
不過我可以免費把你的臉恢復...]
[不用了...她認不出我就算了....
讓我帶著這張面具活著吧....]
病患含著淚…
她剛剛接近他時…留下的那股獨特香味讓他感覺更孤單………
小男孩後來撿起惡魔的面具…
想試探看看那小女孩會不會認出他
然而小女孩不但嚇哭了…還要他別接近她
小男孩就帶著那張惡魔的面具,可憐的活一生
Oh…I bought a new phone for myself…It’s Sony Ericssons K800. Actually, I’ve made survey & comparison for all those latest phones in the market now for quite a period such as Nokia N80, Nokia N93, Nokia N73, Sony Ericssons W800i, Sony Ericssons K610, Sony Ericssons W900i and etc. Well, for me, those latest phones are not cheap (but I’m sure for some of them is cheap la), it’s quite expensive, so I have to select the one that I need the most for myself as I do not want to be regret after I bought a new one. I search from Internet, have ever viewed through all the comparisons and comments from the cell phone philosophers (they said they are but I can’t guarantee they are or not) from the website, viewed through all the comments and votes for each phone, get friends’ comments (mostly overseas friends as their places always more advance than us, so probably they know more than us..hehe. And, I found out that, most of them not recommended me to buy Nokia N70. Why? I also dunno y?They only told me that not nice to use. Even some of them have bought it and sell it off again.But, N70 was my dream phone in last year.) and even cell phone shops salesgirls/men comments to each phone. And, the most important, sure I have to check out their specifications & decide which functions that I want the most.
Well, the last option for me, Nokia N80 or SE K800. For me, the price for SE K800 is much more worthy than Nokia N80 as it get all the function that I want but it’s cheaper than N80. And, it got Cyber-Shot Auto Focus 3.2 MP camera. And, admittedly, Sony Camera always look clearer than others. I like to take photos of mine. So, for sure, this one is most suitable for me. And, it can be a walk-man phone also. And, It got 3G. But, 3G is not the most function that I want coz I do not play with it as not much friends are using 3G phone now. Dunno y? I just love SE phone than others. Mostly bcoz SE phones are more simple and easier to use. And, of coz they got nice design also.
And thanks to Mary for giving me so much comments by comparing those phones for me. She is also strongly recommended & persuaded me to buy SE K800 rather than Nokia. I think what she said is true also (She’s a ladyboss with a few cell phone branches in Miri and also other places, so she knows more about the cellphones than me). Nokia phone is too complicated to use and many functions that we dun need to use it in our daily life. So, just get a simple, user-friendly & nice to use one is enough for me. And, the price is also affordable for me also.
Well, time to stop my blog. Once again, thanks to those friends who had ever given me some comments. I made up my mind & I get a new one for myself on 23.09.06.Thanks!
Oh my! Time flies very fast, I have been an OL for one-and-a-half year. I had been gone through all the sadness, happiness, frustrated, angerness, excited at my workstation. Can you imagine that? No matter how, even though everything had passed, only left those sad + sweet memories to me nowadays. So, Could I said that I gained some experiences? YES! OF COURSE! I’m working more than an assistant would do. I’m totally MULTI-PURPOSE PACKAGE, employed me for a position, but I will do everything for you if you instruct me or order me to do. I’m a MARVELLOUS personal assistant to some of them. But, should I feel proud of that? What for? Because in other words, I’m more likely work as a SERVANT???
Why should I said that? Though I’m working for a company, but I have to manage things from houses, 2 shipyards and main office, eventhough some of them are out of my job scopes. But, what to do? I have to accomplish all my stuffs, and somemore, I tried my best to learn something from everything I done. That’s a good chance for me to learn, isn’t it? I never complaint, never voiced out when I felt extremely fatigued, indisposed, exhausted to the office. Why? Because I know those are my jobs. Even though I want to show out my feeling, the first option that I wouldn’t choose is my colleagues (some of them only), there are too many internal politicians & backstappers inside. Once they seen a thing (especially those unfavourable things), no need to wait, 1 hour after, you can hear all these and those rumours in the office. They more likely to see you doing something wrong/faulty rather than lending you a hand. This’s what I called, they like to "watch nice movies" (commonly,in mandarin, it will be translated as "有好戏看"). I HATE IT seriously! Everytime, I’m out there trying to give you a hand, but sometimes never expect them to return to you the same but in the opposite way.
So, what I can say is "Not working hard then you deserve all the appreciation and benefits". Good benefits offered to me or not, I won’t care so much. But, I rather to get revere & appreciation from you. APPRECIATION is the best motivation to make me work harder, happily & commit to work for longer. I’m a human being. I need some compliments & motivation to work. Once again, I have to say, I’m only a human being, never expect me not to make any mistake, I’m also learning from mistake. Frankly speaking, everybody will gain knowledge & experience from mistakes, everybody will only grow up from the mistakes that they had made. When I done something satisfactory, never receive any compliment, but once I did something wrongly, they will always remember that YOU ARE NOT CAPABLE, YOU ARE DULL / FOOLISH, YOU ARE IRRESPONSIBLE. Here’s the unfair raise up to me! I’m not deserve to all of these unfair appraisals.
I wish I could tell you that, you are very emotional recently. You are very easily to get anger and frustrated with small matters. And, I’m one of the victims. Did you ever notice that, when you are emotional, you will lose your temper & reprove others in a very rude way? You will use those impertinent words to others & never think of others feeling. I’m trying to be endurance to you all these days. I always solace myself by telling myself "You are only in bad mood, so I have to be tolerance to you all the time". I thought that you will be fine after a few days or a few weeks. But, NO!!! My prediction is wrong. You are not the one I knew from the beginning anymore. You are delicate, decent, considerate, thoughtful, sensible and rational all the time. But, now, you are changing. Your changes made me feel so unpredictable, made me lost and moody too as I have to conjecture your thinking, emotion and feeling all the time. I start feeling that I’m discomfort and perturb to talk to you. I’m feeling unnerve to communicate with you now. I start feeling that I do not know how should I do now. Should I give you a call? A SMS? Or ask someone to pass a message to you? When I not informing you something & you found out, you will feel irritation. But once I am informing you, then you censuring me for being foolish to my works. And then, you start to call and scream at those related persons. You made me feel embarrassing, despicable and abominable to those persons. I have ever thought of to try to evade myself & not to show up in the office to avoid any argument or misunderstanding from them. So, what am I supposed to do and react? I really don’t know!!! I fed up with these conditions. I wish I can cry out myself in an unknown place now. I need a long relaxation at the moment, I’m feeling the tension now. Could I?
So, who want to accompany me & be my tourist guide for a vacation in Thailand? Hong Kong? Taiwan? I have to clarify that, I NEED AN AMUSEMENT & FUN ACCOMPANIST as I need to relax my mind now. I need some fun & enjoyment moment from outside. Please kindly calculate the budget for me of the abovementioned places as I am totally have no idea with that. For those who are willing to be my accompanist, I will extend my FULL THANKFULNESS to you. I will appreciate it so much.
Ok!!! I’m going to stop my long long blog now.My emotion is getting better slowly. Wish me all the best for the coming days. God bless me!
Terms & Conditions: The entry above is only applies to some of *them*, but not all of *them*. Please kindly take note. *Them* is referring to my colleagues.
Uhu? I Bought a house? Am I dreaming? Impossible right? But it’s true, I bought a house on 06-08-2006 (Sunday). Though the house I bought is not a high-end or an expensive one. But it’s the first europe designed single storey terrace house (a very fresh change compared to those traditional house) in Miri and with a reasonable price that I still able to make loan repayment every month.
My dream has come true. When I started my first job since last year on March, I was keep telling myself that, I wanna buy a house for myself & also my family. I did it! It is ain’t a dream anymore. It’s only RM109,500.00, Senadin area is the only one area that I still afford to buy a house. My monthly loan repayment costs me around RM600.00. Does it worth? Wahaha! But I think it’s worth. I’m imagine now…imagine how to have my own interior design for my own house, imagine that I have my own privacy, my own properties inside my own house. Oh…the feeling is so nice indeed! But, one of the worried is I have to save some money for my house renovation & furnitures after one and a half year (the time the developer finished their development). Argh!!! Another target & challenge for me from now on. I have to work more harder to get more increments in the future next few years. I hope that I can do it for myself!
Well, another goal is buy a car for myself. Isn’t it hard for me to achieve? Yes! It’s hard! Since I got a housing loan now, have to pay my insurance to protect myself every month also. Human being is quite unpredictable nowadays, who knows I have health problem one day, then insurance can help me to cover up some of my medical / hospitality expenses. Am I right? Wahahaa….I’m too countable! Sure! After working, I’ve to learn to plan my own lifestyle + financial for my good & bright future. I hope I am doing the right thing for myself.
So, now what I am suppose to do is WORK HARDER for myself. I know that I will get what I want in future. Hope my dream can succeed soon oh….wish me all the best!!!!
